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Disclaimer<\/strong>: This is a grumpy post. I\u2019m deprived of daylight\/sunlight, and not feeling great about it. I\u2019m fully aware that what I\u2019m about to express is all related to first world problems. I know I have a lot to be thankful for, and I am. Sometimes you just have to get it out. Thanks for understanding.<\/p>\nMy house is a mess. My Christmas tree is naked. My attic has half a floor and my upstairs is covered in dust from the attic. I told Benne that I would decorate the tree this afternoon. Last night, he went to get all the decorations from the attic, only to find that they were also covered in a thick<\/strong> layer of plaster dust. \u2018How are we going to get that off?\u2019 I asked. \u2018With the dust-broom I think it should work.\u2019 He put the decorations in the shed so they wouldn\u2019t be dusting up the living room. Today it\u2019s pouring rain, and windy. The tree is still naked: you can\u2019t really dust stuff off in the rain. Meanwhile, I\u2019m supposed to be happily working along on this bakingbook project\u2026that at the moment has lost its magic for me. I know the magic will come back. That spark of internal motivation comes at goes. At the moment it\u2019s gone, baby.<\/p>\n Maybe it has to do with that fact that we\u2019ve arrived in the depths of what the Dutch call de donkere maanden <\/em>or the dark months\u2026months of darkness sounds more gloomy, so I\u2019ll use that. It doesn\u2019t get light until 9:00\u2026and then \u2018getting light\u2019 is being generous. During the day, the sky stays a hazy gray color that\u2019s so stark that it hurts your eyes. Then around 15:00 (3pm) the gray color turns grayish purple, and it starts getting dark again. This, combined with cold wind and big splattering drops of rain is what I have going on today. During this time of the year, it starts to feel like you live in a cave.<\/p>\n